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birth; a younger brother normal; has no other relatives.
He was brought up in England, and went to school at the age of
13. At a very early age, between 6 and 8, was deeply impressed by
the handsome face of a young man, a royal trumpeter on horseback,
seen in a procession. This, and the sight of the naked body of
young men in a rowing-match on the river, caused great commotion,
but not of a definitely sexual character. This was increased by
the sight of a beautiful male model of a young Turk smoking, with
his dress open in front, showing much of the breast and below the
waist. He became familiar with pictures, admired the male figures
of Italian martyrs, and the full, rich forms of the Antinous, and
he read with avidity the _Arabian Nights_ and other Oriental
tales, translations from the classics, Suetonius, Petronius, etc.
He drew naked models in life schools, and delighted in male
ballet-dancers. As a child, he used to perform in private
theatricals; he excelled in female parts, and sang the songs of
Madame Vestris, encouraged in this by his father.
The sexual organs have never been fully developed, and the
testicles, though large, are of a flabby consistence. He cannot
whistle. He thinks he ought to have been a woman.
At school he was shy and reserved, and had no particular intimacy
with anyone, although he once desired it. He learned self-abuse
from his younger brother, who had learned it from an older boy.
He has never had erotic dreams. He never touched anyone but his
brother until later when travelling in Italy, and then only his
fellow-traveller. When travelling in Asia Minor he had many
opportunities, but always put them aside from fear, afterward
regretting his fearfulness. He yearned for intimacy with
particular friends, but never dared to express it. He went much
to theaters, and what he saw there incited him to masturbation.
When he was about 30 years of age his reserve, and his fear of
treachery and extortion, were at last overcome by an incident
which occurred late at night at the Royal Exchange, and again in
a dark recess in the gallery of the Olympic Theater when Gustavus
Brooke was performing. From that time the Adelphi Theater, the
Italian Opera, and the open parks at night became his fields of
adventure. He remarks that among people crowding to witness a
fire he found many opportunities. His especial intimates were a
railway clerk and an Italian model. In more recent years he has
chiefly found gratification among footmen and policemen.
He is exclusively passive; also likes mutual _fellatio_. He used
greatly to admire finely developed forms (conscious of his own
shortcomings), shapely limbs, and delicate brown hair, and always
admired strength and manly vigor. He never took any interest in
boys, and has always been indifferent to women.
HISTORY XXIV.--A medical man, English, aged 30. He believes that
his father, who was a magistrate, was very sympathetic toward
men; on several occasions he has sat with him on the bench when
cases of indecent assault were brought up; he discharged three
cases, although there could be little doubt as to their guilt,
and was very lenient to the others.
From the age of 9 he loved to sleep with his brother, ten years
older, who was in the navy; they slept in different beds, and the
child went to bed early, but he always kept awake to see his
brother undress, as he adored his naked body; and would then get
into his bed. He learned the habit of masturbation from his
brother at the age of 9; at that time there was no sexual orgasm,
but watching it in his brother was a perpetual source of wonder
and pleasure. During his brother's absence at sea the boy longed
for his return and would practice self-abuse with the thought of
his brother's naked body before him. This brother's death was a
source of great grief. At the age of 12 he went to
boarding-school and was constantly falling in love with
good-looking boys. He was always taken into one of the bigger
boys' beds. At this age he was thoroughly able to enjoy the
sexual orgasm with boys. His erotic dreams have always been of
men and especially of boys; he has never dreamed sexually of
women. From the age of 9 to the age of 21, when he left school,
he never gave women a thought sexually, though he always liked
their society. For two years after leaving school he had
connection with women, not because he thought there was sin in
loving his own sex, but because he regarded it as a thing that no
one did after leaving school. During these two years he still
really preferred men and used to admire the figures of soldiers
and sailors. He then paid a visit to London, which may be
described in his own words: "I went to see an old schoolfellow
who was living there. In his room was a young fellow, fair,
extremely good looking, with a good figure and charming manners.
From that moment all my past recollections came back. I could not
get him out of my mind; in fact, I was in love with him. I
pictured him naked before me as a lovely statue; my dreams were
frequent at night, always of him. For a fortnight afterward I
practised masturbation with the picture of his lovely face and
form always before me. We became fast friends, and from that day
women have never entered my thoughts."
Although up to the present he has no wish or intention to marry,
he believes that he will eventually do so, because it is thought
desirable in his profession; but he is quite sure that his love
and affection for men and boys will never lessen.
In earlier life he preferred men from 20 to 35; now he likes boys
from 16 upward; grooms, for instance, who must be good looking,
well developed, cleanly, and of a lovable, unchanging nature; but
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